Near and Dear

So I was going to talk about Valentines Day in this post but come on none of you care about that, so I'll just leave you with a couple pictures of my flowers :)

So I want to talk about something that means alot to me. In December I started working for a Oncology/Hematology group. If you don't know they are cancer specialists but also deal with blood disorders as well. Previous to this I worked in the Emergency Room at a local hospital and although I loved it at the beginning it got old after the first couple years. All the drug seekers and so forth. It weighs on you and makes you not enjoy your job. Don't get me wrong I learned alot from the ER but it was time for something new. I was becoming jaded and a not so happy individual. I've always considered myself a people person but the ER ruined me and made me hate people.
     So I got this job with the cancer specialists and loved it from the beginning. My patients are amazing (except there are always going to be those certain one I could live without) I love to talk to my patients and get to know them and I have forged relationships with many of them already. I also love to sit and listen to them talk to each other while they are receiving Chemotherapy. I feel like they help each other while they share their experiences and what things have helped them through this time. It also breaks my heart to see them when they get upset because I honestly have no idea what they are going through, and for some of these people it is def. not their first time.
      I have 1 specific patient who breaks my heart everyday, she is a young girl who is pregnant. She has a daughter and is pregnant with another. She is having to take chemo because they couldn't hold off or else she would have died shortly after the diagnosis. It breaks her doctors heart everyday to have to give chemo to her. She is the sweetest girl and very appreciative for everything. We had her a baby shower the other and it was great. I honestly wanted to break down and cry. She got so many great things that she needed. She was so excited. It makes me feel great to know that I work with such amazing people that can pull this off and do this for this woman.
       Needless to say I'm glad I'm finally doing something that makes me feel good and I finally feel like I'm making a difference in peoples lives, its the greatest feeling in the world.